Living with Depression: In a parallel world!
February 08, 2022
I too wish often, desperately, to have a normal life, where this empty feeling won’t suddenly appear and grasp me completely. Where after a long day of work, I will have dinner, take a shower, and fall asleep; like a normal person. Where tons of thoughts won’t start clouding me suddenly and I won’t lose myself. I wish I won’t have to live in fear that any moment my mind could turn into a dark place and I have to be prepared to fight that!
I have a very important technical interview tomorrow morning at 9 and it is already 3 AM but I can’t sleep at all. I am exhausted, tired, alone, and stuck. I am exhausted trying not to give up, exhausted trying to be normal for everyone else. Yes, I finally understood that hiding and trying to be normal is the only thing I can do to keep myself employed! Living my true life can’t be possible when I have to worry about paying bills. This is what life is. Fake it till you make it, right?
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Previous stories of this series:
- Living with Depression: Is There Any Light?
- Living with Depression: What Does It Feel to be Normal?
- Living with Depression: Someone brave reached out to me!
- Living with Depression: A Tiny Little Success
- Living with Depression: I Lost Again!
- Living with Depression: Still Struggling
- Living with Depression: Is being Alive a Punishment, a Curse?
- Living with Depression: What is the point
- Living with Depression: Can You Relate
